A roller coaster Day

I didn't slept well last nite...
Left the home with a heavy heart, as i know today wont be a normal cheery day.
There were many 1st times today.
It was the 1st time that i experienced the lost of someone very dear to Pam n me.
It was the 1st time that i went to Mandai Crementation Hall and attended a service held for the dismised, and witnessed how the whole procedures went.
It was the 1st time in the past few days, that my tears flowed uncontrollably and the fact that she is gone really hit me....
It was the first time i took part in sea burial.

Aunty Sally was a real fighter, in pam's words, she was a warrior who never give up and fight the battle till her very last breathe.
I will always remember the day when i went to visit her at the hospital, the day before she passed on.
She opened her eyes n took a long look at each and everyone of us. She even gave me a nod to acknowledge my presence, n i could see a smile in her eyes, somehow assuring me that everything is fine and not to worry abt her....

Aunty Sally had lived well and she will be dearly missed and remembered.
Although she had moved on to a better place, she will always live in our hearts.

To Pam: U have been a strong gal. But just to let u know, i will always be here for u. I am really fortunate to know u and ur family and forged such close ties. This special bond that we shared will continue to flourish. Take care babe, i love you. Take care of ur precious daddy too! Call me anytime =)