There will only be memories left behind those smiles.....

Today is the 30th... It suppose to be our 3yrs and 7mths month-sery.

But somehow, today is also the closure of our r/s...

Hx juz left for his graduation trip this morn to Taiwan for 2weeks n i think he should reach tw by now already.

Well, i dunno wat to say or how i am feeling exactly right now...

I should be happy, coz this is wat i hv been wanting since some time ago - which is to be single.

But i am not feeling really happy yet...

Coz i still feel a little lost, n i feel bad...

Felt bad for bringing him so much misery and made him go through so much shit, felt guilty tt I am so determined to end this 3.5 long r/s n do not want to give him a 2nd chance...

Well.... Seriously, i am Really tired of telling lies, making committments, being a responsible gf n pretending to be happy when i am not....

So being Single rite now is the best choice for me.

I do not wanna drag the r/s further when i know tt my feelings for him had faded.

It would be unfair to him if i continue to be in the r/s when i no longer hv feelings for him.

So going separate ways is the best decision for us.

There is nothing i can do or say now, n i dont wanna explain myself futher on how this r/s ended up this way or why i made such a decision.

I no longer care abt how ppl would judge me on the way tt i handle this matter.

Maybe some of u will think tt i am cruel or it is so wasted to end such a long r/s... N blah....

I juz DO NOT wanna care AnyMOre.

I know tt i would not regret this decision n all i want is to be happy....

I wish Hanxin all the best in whatever he do. Be happy too....

So yup, I am Single now, n this is wat I want.

The Long-awaited movie is out!!!!

Cant wait to catch it~~~

Hope it'wll be as good as the tv series, n i think it will be... Heez...

I'm goin to batam over the coming weekend for a short trip wif my girlies...

It's a short, relaxing trip for the tired souls...

A much needed trip for the 4 of us.

Coz I think the 4 of us need this get-away to rest our minds a little from all the stress from work, skool, r/s problems n blah blah blah....

Hope i can enjoy myself there...

It seems tt everyone had planned or even went for their graduation trip Except ME!!!!

I wanna go to Graduation Trip too~~~~~

Wanna go to Europe, US, Aussie, Japan, which ever country tt i've never been b4....

But due to budget constraints, i think i am settling down for Taiwan, Again.

Yes, i've been to Taiwan 2 yrs ago, n i should be goin there again either this june or july, but with diff group of pple, so the fun and experience would be diff too. =)

But on a side note, i do not mind Bangkok again too... Haha...

Results are releasing soon... I am still keeping my figures crossed.

I REALLY REALLY WANNA GRADUATE!!!

I do not aim any honours or any As n Bs, all i wished for, is to Graduate this sem on time.

So PLEASE let me fulfill this tiny little dream of mine......

-Ru Desperately wished n hoped with all her might tt she will be able to attend her own convocation this july....-

Woo HOO!!!!!
I FINALLY PASSED MY DRIVING!!!
YEAH~~~~~~~
Got 18 demerit points, thought I would fail.... But i barely scrape through! Haha!
Can pass den ok le~~~~
I was quite Heng la....
Hope my next 2 wished can come true too....
Still Keeping my Fingers crossed. =)

Though my exams have ended....
I am not really enjoying my holidays as much as i expected it to be....
Coz i am in a dilemma situation...
I was in a very very confused state....
I never handle things properly....
Things turned out very differently from wat i've planned n expected....
My love life became rather dramatic in a way.....
I got Lost.....

But i've made a decision....
N i will be firm n stick to wat i've decided.
There's no turning back now.
All i need is time.....
Time to sort my feelings out, time to stay in tune with myself n find back the old Me, time to think wat i really really want.

I am a selfish being....
All i want is the best for myself, and find the true happineses that i deserve.....